an answer to things..^_^

Contrary to what you're probably thinking, I'm not updating my blog for the sake of updating it. Hello? It's not as if I care for my beloved blog as much as I used to. No, I'm updating because after reading his entries, I felt an urge to, and sometimes urges are supposed to be followed. Haha.

It may sound stupid, but actually the idea is ingenious, using the blog as a network of communication for things we just cannot openly talk about.

Yeah, I'm talking abut my LL. This is my second entry about it, but as you may have noticed, the first one is missing. I didn't delete it though, it's just not published. Why? Well, because I think it has served its purpose, though at first, it really did not have a purpose at all. Weird, I know. But well, here's the second one..

I find it almost funny how different we are in person from what we are in text messaging and chat. I mean, I think the only time we can properly talk with each other in person is when the whole world is not looking, and that does not happen very often. But I don't blame him for it. In fact, I can't blame anyone for it. Our worlds are just so far apart that they rarely meet. We're like in opposite sides of the room, and our circles of friends just barely intersect. The worse thing is, *someone* is included in my circle and I think he also has *another someone* in his, which obviously causes misunderstandings.

Speaking of her, I hate to admit it, but I can't deny that I'm just jealous of her every time she's with him. I mean, I know it's not something I should feel because I don't have the right to, but it's not like I can control my hypothalamus from secreting hormones that give me this emotion, right? It's involuntary, unlike my skeletal muscles. Haha. Reasoning out. Probably got it from Toni.

Anyway, it's only minimal. But still, I was so relieved when I read his entries. It kind of gave me assurance when I was already seriously doubting everything. Yet, after everything that's been happening with us, I'm not actually sure where we're going. Oh well. Come what may.

But really, you are the only one. Haha.

absurdly out of the topic, Ken won 1st place, followed by Eric and Danielle, in the computer contest at school. They would be joining me in interschool competitions. yey. :)

And, yeah, i got in the top15 in the literature contest but i think i may have lost the essay writing contest. hehe.