if we fall in love..

There will be no ordinary days for you
'Cause there is someone that cares like I do
You will have no reason to be sad anymore
I am always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you

[refrain]
You don’t have to search no more
'Cause I am someone who will love you for sure

[chorus]
So if we fall in love maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in love we can write a better song than this
If we fall in love we will have that melody in our head
If we fall in love anywhere with you would be a better place

You can watch that movie in a different light
I will be right there beside you hugging you oh so tight (oh so tight)
How can love feels so cold and empty again
And I will keep on holding on and won’t let go (and won’t let go)

[repeat refrain and chorus]

Feel so good when you're around
One smile from you (one smile from you) and I just feel so bright

[repeat chorus]

now why have i been addicted to that song for how many weeks already? it's simple. i can totally relate to it.

OMG it's raining. the weather is agreeing with my mood. it's monday. we don't have classes, and i have been in front of the computer monitor the whole morning, hoping that he would miraculously appear OL. impossible. i am beginning to turn into an addicted paranoid. gotta quit it somehow..

quoting kelly clarkson, "and i always dreamed, that love would be effortless, like a petal falling to the ground, a dreamer following his dream." no. it is certainly not effortless. as a result of my sensitivity, i have gone through lots of emotions already. lol. but it's worth the effort. haha.. why am i saying this?. EMO.XD

my eyes are currently hurting from solving this. haha. thanks to bernadette, i just tried it out one time, and im now addicted. stopped at level 32 because my eyes are really hurting already. lol.

im gonna do something phenomenal. i won't load for a week. wish me luck. XD

it's 24 today..

yep. it is. and what special thing happened? nothing you would consider "special" really, just some things that i would remember for some time. like that, uhm, thing. lol. i don't wanna say it; i don't know how to say it anyway. haha.

our english film is in danger. i think it's still kinda cute and all, if people would just try to listen to the dialogues, since the script was the main part of the film. the script was really cool actually, despite it's 'jed-like' sound. haha. it was like jed talking through each of us. lol. it's all upto eric now to finish everything. haha. i have to do our schedule plan. hmm, dunno where to start. XD

we really could have done so much better...

uknow what, im kinda accepting that fact that we weren't in the top3 of the cheering competition. sections 4 and 7 were also nice. im eating everything i said in the past about them. :)

my mom just bought me an exact replica of the one i lost. lol. hope its future won't be the same as the other one. haha..

have you ever felt happy, but sad? funny. haha. im feeling that right now, happy but sad.

anyway, im 16. and loving it. XD

it's feb 22.

i find the brain a really funny thing. well okay, maybe it's just my brain haha, but it's really weird. a always remember things to say to different people at odd times and places, and yet when im right in front of the person, i forget i even have to tell them anything. weird. haha. kinda looks like memories choose when they surface. lol.

anyway, i don't understand why songs like this were never made for the opposite gender:

Puzzle of My Heart - Westlife

It's the way she fills my senses
It's the perfume that she wears
I feel I'm losing my defenses
To the colour of her hair

And every, little, piece of her is right
Just thinking, about her
Takes me through the night

(Chorus)
Everytime we meet
The picture is complete
Everytime we touch
The feeling is too much
She's all I ever need
To fall in love again
I knew it from the very start...
She's the puzzle of my heart

It's the way she's always smiling
That makes me think she never cries
I feel like I'm losing my defenses
To the colour of her eyes

And every, little, piece of her is right

(Chorus)

Like a miracle she's meant to be
She became the light inside of me
And I can feel her like a memory
From long.......ago

OMG. it's so sweet. haha. i wish i could find a song like that for him. lol.

totally out of the topic, i won't rant about sir limuaco. it's a complete waste of my time ( lol, as if im busy. XD)

dead tired.

i was looking forward to sleeping early today, but obviously, it was not meant to be. lol. my grandmother is flying back to US tomorrow, and so we ate out today. should have expected it. anyway, we were able to be back home 11. so much for sleeping early, i still had to type, edit and print dwight's dedication to Ms. Borja, and Mrs. Delantar. haha.

my birthday is 3 days away. omg omg omg. haha. OA. XD lalang. i just can't wait to turn 16. lol bakit kaya? haha. i don't know either.. haha. goodluck to FilDram members. hehe..

anyway, the main reason im updating is because of my utter dislike for a certain person*. my gosh, how can someone be so completely, and downright annoying?? grabe. and i thought there was a chance in hell we were gonna be friends. yeah right. i was wrong.

* - im not specifying a gender.

goodbye's are sad.

i just proved today that i absolutely look horrible in pictures. i mean really. oh well, gotta live with the fact.

anyway, i was able to watch our video today. i guess it was okay, but the quality really was not good. if the video is to be shown in something widescreen, as that in the little theater, it's gonna look pixelated. urgh. hope it still turns out fine. there were a lot of cute scenes, but some dialogues sounded so muffled. haha. and dubbed voices sounded so, unnatural. lol. i had a hard time dubbing mine haha..we still have lots to do, like the subtitles, and the credits, and the song, and it's already next week! waaa.. Hope we'd be able to finish it. lol.

i actually had a pretty boring and uneventful day today. i walked around tutuban for almost 3 hours, and i have proven that it's sooo useless. i couldn't find anything nice to buy for myself. lol. and im too lazy to go to SM North.. haha. im hoping my mother is gonna buy me a new phone, but it's quite impossible, actually it's totally impossible, because my sister is about to give her ericson phone to me. hay, still not a camera phone. haha. oh well, it's still better than my current 3310. lol. XD

yeah, goodbye's are sad. i hate saying goodbye's to people i know i will definitely miss, even the shallow goodbye's that only signify parting for a short time. i don't know, there's something in saying goodbye that makes me sad. have you ever felt like you wanted time to stop? it's hard to walk away from that feeling, and it's harder to face the fact that time is never gonna stop. hay. so sad.. haha.. ang drama. XD

the past week.

i haven't been able to update this past week. but no, it's not because im busy. in fact, last tuesday and wednesday, i got home at 630, ate a little snack, slept, woke up at 9, texted for 2 and a half hours, and slept at 1130. NICE. and while i was doing this idleness, my classmates were cramming for their argumentative paper. SO NICE.

i actually suffer from the adamant disease of procrastination too. it's just that i didn't practice it this time around. well, actually i sort of crammed the last minute details of my acknowledgment and dedication. haha. toni said i thanked so many people that it looks like i just received an award or something. lol. i just named lots of specific people. haha. im really nervous about my paper. i mean, i think i already did my best; im actually kinda proud of it, but still, who knows what Mrs. Tiu's standard is? haha.

eric just joined this CAL search for ICT wizards, and of course i served as the eternal alternate. it was kinda fun actually. we trained, no wait, i mean Eric trained (well actually i was the one asking him random questions, so i guess i trained him? hahaha. ) for the contest. Exemption from nothing important really, just the boredom of classes. anyway, moving on. Friday. Ms. Pablo accompanied us, and Mang Ruben drove us to Phil trade. the building was kinda big. and when we entered, we were actually surprised to see lots of students per school. this was surprising because from what Mrs. D told us (she just gave birth), this was an individual type of contest. It turned out that what she said was accurate, it was individual, but there were 6 different contests! and she just included our school in the quiz bee, when there was programming, web designing, pc assembly, quiz bee for elementary, and desktop publishing. guess what language the programming contest was? VISUAL BASIC. OMG. that's like the language we're studying in school. so sad. i really think i could have won there if i studied. lol. feeler. haha.

anyway, back to eric's quiz bee. when he registered, there were already 23 people ahead of him, representing different schools from NCR and CALABARZON regions. it was really cool because we met yet again with the Claret people. it was nice seeing Eric Imperial and catching up with him since he's already using Sun cellular and we haven't been able to talk. the contest started late as usual. it began at 1230, instead of the original 11 am. anyway, there were a total of 40 HS students competing for three spots in the national finals the following day. it was multiple choice all throughout and so guessing was totally possible. haha. but i think the questions were nice. the categories were somehow evenly spread. Eric fell one question short of the 1st place. power supply lol. haha.

Saturday: National Finals.
31 people. lots of booths. lots of grammar errors. not-so-nice questions. 7th placer. new acquaintances from Taguig. new bracelets. Ms.Isidro. Lion King musical. 20000 cash prize for the third place. not much to say. XD

i dont really wanna talk about it. but more importantly, im getting lazy writing. sorry. XD

advance happy chinese new year. :)

sort of happy. :)

i was happy today. despite my absolute and supreme sleepiness (which was ironic because i slept 930 last night.XD ), despite the fact that i currently have a single peso left in my load account, despite the reality that it's a monday (my hatest day of the whole week primarily because of double english. ), despite my disappointment at finding out that my chinese singing contest was not forgotten after all, it was simply postponed, i was happy today. and i have a lot of reasons to be so. i just won't write them here..hehe. ;)

currently writing acknowledgment and dedication. konti nalang.... XD

hay.

why is it that im doing all sorts of unimportant things when i have to do a lot of important ones? hay. that's exactly what's happening right now.. hmph. i still have to study english, and write my mao pi assignments, and what am i doing? writing a stupid blog entry. curse myself.

what an irony isn't it? because im saying what a waste of time this entry is, and still im going on writing it.. haha. life is itself an irony after all..

i have a very big problem. a friend of mine just told me his heart broke because i told him i already had someone. hmph. anu ba nman yan? ang dami daming tao s mundo eh. besides, we haven't even met. i only talk to him through text and chat, and just today he called me on my phone. i was very surprised actually. and then un, he asked me about my love life, and i told him. and then when i was about to sign off [ we were talking in YM ], he said...

just when i was starting to feel a bit confident my heart broke again. i hope something will never change but then agen i must move on.

hay. why is life so complicated?

someone help me. x_x

how to make a paper.

my edition of how to save a life. hahaha. :)

anyway, the best way to make a paper: base your topic on resources available. seriously. it would make your life a hundred times easier. just take me for example. i have a complete paper regarding my topic specifically. im currently already 90% done, when i think most of my classmates haven't even started. it was just too easy. if you're thinking of it right now, no, of course i didn't plagiarize! well, okay, a bit, but hey, that's forgivable right?

my next big English problem: our short film. i have this horrible thought that we won't be able to finish it on time, or that it won't come out as cute as it's supposed to be. lol. i hope our film comes out fine. XD

it's valentine's day next week. i don't know what to expect. lol.

more important day: it's my birthday next next week. haha. :)

happy birthday abbie. for two weeks, you'll be two years older than me. hahaha. :)

current favorite song: If we fall in Love. <3

in lieu of cliches..

ok. i have no idea what that title means. it just sort of popped into my mind, so i guess i would have to build my entry around that. lol weird ba? haha.

cliche #1:
High school is the happiest phase of your life.

Although that may be true, i have a better idea. High School is all about discovering, discovering what you have never done before, and what you may never be able to do again. It's about discovering relationships, friendships and love. It's about discovering hidden sides.

Simply put, it's about discovering yourself, and LIFE.

cliche #2:
Everyone has been blessed with talents they can use.

yeah i know. it's just that i don't seem to fall under that "everyone". seriously. i have been trying to find something im really good at, and i cant find any. i think i have some talent in programming but then, i wont be able to use that in college. too bad. oh well, just have to deal..and study harder. XD

haha. i got 53 in math btw. personal achievement.XD

appreciate.

Honestly, I am not supposed to be blogging right now. I mean, we have a unit test in math tomorrow, but I guess I just can't help myself. Lol.

These past days, I had a realization: appreciate. I suddenly realized that I have been taking lots of things, and as I was doing this, I have hurt some people I love along the way. Oblivious. The perfect word to describe my existence. im trying to change it, but i guess it's somehow a big part of me already. anyway, i have come to appreciate lots of things...

..including the amazing cheerdances of UST and UP. really, i have watched all of them before, but now that i have experienced joining an amateur cheerdance competition, they just seem so.. amazing.. awesome. haha. i was also able to watch our own cheerdance today, and i am proud to say that i think we did really good. if not for the not-so-nice cheer part.. the dance routine was so nicely done. congrats us! XD

..and my glasses. i just realized i cant survive without them. i dont understand anything in our physics class. x_x

wish me luck on my unit test tomorrow. i have been doing abysmally on my math. horrible.

new skin..

i just realized it now. super ironic ng blog skin ko. because, definitely no one has left me. in fact, he has barely come. lol.

anyway, the skin is still cute. haha. :)

btw, i love this picture. totally. XD



lalang. =)

<3

after so many days of not updating, i have so much to write about, if only i could remember everything, and if only i did not have the laziness to write such long entries.

ok, so why haven't i been updating? no, it's not purely because of the fact that im thinking of closing this, it's just that i didn't HAVE the time. i mean, for the past week, i have been going home at 830-9 om, and i have barely been in front of the computer! and if i was, i was either doing articles for Jed/Toni (what a coincidence.XD), OR writing something for my arguemenative paper. so you see, i did not have the TIME. why? One word: CHEERING.

That intersection cheering competition last February 1, where i still think we should have gotten at last 3rd place. we so deserved it. anyway, we got 4th place, which is good enough i guess, considering we beat sections 6 and 8. but still, i totally despise the judges! ok, 4-2 deserved 1st place, i concede to the fact. they were amazing, costume, synchronization, steps. everything was perfect. so, congratulations to them! :) i won't comment about the others anymore, less i say something, uhm, EVIL. >:) oh well. we did not have a professional choreographer (almost every other section had, especially the top3), unless you think IAN is one, which im sure he could pass to be, lol, and so, you could say that 4th place is definitely something to be proud about. congrats ian, and the other cheering people.:) and btw, thanks for all the people who went to cheer for us. special mention: abbie. thanks, whatever anyone says. :)

also, i just finished reading two sort-of-related-but-not-actually-the-same books. The Undomestic Goddess and Little White Lies. they were what i would call cute and funny romance novels. haha! anyway, the guy in Little White Lies, Simon Rutheford, was just perfect. i mean, come on! he's super rich(well, not that it matters, but hey, it's a plus right??), super good looking, super nice, super thoughtful, super understanding, has super nice parents, super caring. ok, i used super a bit too much, but seriously, the guy was just perfect. haha. and he also knew how to surprise the girl, which is something i love because i really love happy surprises..

..like the fact that i passed UP. it was so wonderful a surprise, and i still thank God, and all the other people who never doubted i would pass, for it. and congrats nellie, for being an oblation scholar. XD

anyway, back to the story. i guess you already know how the story ended. rich guy and ordinary girl got together. end of the they-lived-happily-ever-after type of story. not that im depressed. i love happy ending stories. haha! ..hoping that mine would be too. lol :)

it's february 3 (happy birthday, hybee! XD), and in less than 2 months, i would be graduating from high school. i can't help thinking that i am about to close the happiest part of my life. i have never felt so belonged than in my fourth year HS. i discovered profound friendships with people i never expected to, connected deeply with an unexpected person.. im just totally happy right now. of course i can't expect things to last, and i can't deny im sort of scared, but excited to experience college, but i still want to enjoy HS. hay. im gonna miss going to school early just to copy a physics assignment, studying for LE in AP period, leaving every notebook aside from Physics and Math stuck in my locker, practicing for cheering, talking with danielle, making funny teeth slogans, training for Ms. C's most coveted Southville contest, cramming for English papers, trying and failing to study for chinese, getting lower grades than my brother in elementary math, crying over math grades, laughing at Ms. B's dramaticism, at Mrs. T's trying not to show her favoritism, hating Mr. L for inventing grades, spending time in the library with the tech club people, spending time with him, Abbie and her talks, listening to iris and danielle talk about tennis, that day i went with kimberley's group, conversations with toni, pondering what to think of N, Jed's weird and funny personality, Eric's smile and jokes, davin's irritating but amusing manner, almost everyone in class in fact. in short, im just really gonna miss IV-5 Cinq.

im so hoping college would be as fun as this. lol ASA. college is supposed to prepare you for college so i guess it's supposed to be serious. oh well, i might as well prepare for working life.