questions..

..what if, your larynx just refuses to follow your brain everytime he's near?

..what if, you secretly glance his way anytime possible, and yet you cannot look him in the eye when you talk with him?

..what if, you fervently hope its him everytime your celphone rings, and your heart flutters when it is?

..what if, you sign in on YM, only with the hope that he is also online?

..what if, you sleep a lot better if he greets you goodnight?

..what if, you feel unwarranted jealousy everytime he talks with someone else?

..what if, you can't understand his actions sometimes?

..what if, you can't even understand your own feelings?

..what if, you want to believe everything he tells you, yet somehow, doubt seeps in?

..what if, you're really scared of him drifting apart?

how do you tell him he's all that important in your life? that's probably harder than any physics problem i have encountered. haha

life's fun hahaha.

it's been less than a week. haha. hello again, my dearest, forsaken blog. ^_^

well, as the title says, life's fun. and it is!
it's also happy..=)
just see for example, exempted from chinese classes tomorrow? haha.

im really afraid of the end of this school year..i feel like im gonna leave a big part of myself behind, but i still believe every end is a new beginning..so im just hoping for that.

and im also hoping for outings..(toni, narinig mo? haha. joke lang :D)

btw, i had this pact with toni, eric, kimberly, abi, and jean..that we'll race each other in having a total savings of 4 million,..once we have jobs. hahaha.

and of course, "that" happened..=)

in a perfect world, this could never happen.....blah blah.

Im feeling completely disappointed, and thoroughly annoyed at myself for feeling so.

Ive just felt how it was to really expect something, and suddenly find out that it wasnt coming.
There was just this contest that i was told i was included in, but apparently, i was not. It may seem childish and stuff, but it did affect me to some point. I mean, its not that i think im really good in chem or what, believe me, i dont think im excepional in it. its just that i dont get to join a lot of contest stuffs, and so, im kinda disappointed. its sort of like i got my hopes up for nothing.

do i even have the right to feel this? i dont really know. but im sure il get over it after some time...hehe.

Simple Plan's Perfect world and Spongecola's Neon rock my head these days, they kinda fit my mood.
haha. there! i updated my precious blog for two days in a row. beats eric's. haha. joke. ^_^

it's been a long time..

well. i don't really have anything to write about, and in case you hav read eric's entry in his blog, i have been following those steps unawaringly. haha.

i have nothing but complains inside me right now, mostly because of this analytical paper, which i have no idea how to write in the first place. My topic is really vague, consultation absolutely needed. haha. anyone has any advice??

My math grade btw, i managed an 86. my physics, though, got a 95. haha. im worried about english now. but im not really grade-conscious, only when i think im about to fail. hehe.

This paper is really driving me mad. hope to update my blog again sometime. haha. sorry for this abysmally insane entry, it's nonsense, i just write for the fun of it. haha.