there are times when id love to vomit, or cry. or both.

but then, i just can't.

and then,

for some reason, i smile instead.

Life really is a funny thing.

stupid mouse..

there's something terribly wrong with my mouse. hay. we've got to have a new one soon..

anyway. today was graduation. kinda plain for such a momentous day. i mean, this is like the ultimatum, the highest peak, the one we studied four years for. and OMG, it was super plain. and boring, and super super DULL. wait, no, i mean, solemn. oh really? i don't think it was solemn at all. haha. nobody followed what Mrs. C kept reminding us during the practice. oh well, who cares really. it's our graduation after all. haha. :D

well there was something that happened today that made me happy. despite the super irritating hangover i had. because of watching DVDs. LOL. i slept at 4am, and woke up at 6. and FYI, my body's used to an average of 7hours of sleep, so yeah, hangover. i barely ate breakfast, which caused me to have ulcer. LOL LOL. and i had a severe headache for some time. what an experience really. and i did it right at the day of my graduation. good thing i didn't faint in front of everyone. haha.

im really thinking of switching to tabulas. wala lang. i suddenly wanted to switch. haha. it's kinda like McDo or Jollibee. ABS or GMA. Coke or Pepsi. Blogger or tabulas. haha. XD

anyway, im officially an alumni of CKSC. LOL.

at last.

i finally finished.

yup. i did.

and i absolutely don't care how pathetic it is.

after facing our plain monitor for the past 8 hours, i have developed a severe headache, and an eye sore. i hope Ms. Teacher is happy. lol joke lang. im not that mean. but i will remember what she made me go through forever. haha.

Oh well, Eric, goodluck. haha. :)

**

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand

So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey

See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
(What goes around comes back around)

--What goes around.
Justin's song is so nice. i so love it. :D
btw, it's 7+ minutes long. haha

drained.

i finished watching Cardcaptor Sakura yesterday.

yes, i am childish but well, it can't be helped. XD

well, sometimes it is just impossible to not fall in love with such things. especially if you know, you can just see your life in it, and you like, can't help but laugh. haha. or, if you see someone else's persona. it's cute. XD anyway, yup. im in love with an anime, well not exclusively, but yeah. haha. :)

this is my break. im currently draining my brain because of some concept paper. poor us, who are doing this. oh well, curse school, who's still hunting us with work even though the school year is practically over. hay. gotta go back to draining my head. XD

a reminder

PANALANGIN--Moonstar88

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay,
makapiling ka, makasama ka,
yan ang panalangin ko.
at hindi papayag ang pusong ito,
mawala ka, sa 'king piling,
mahal ko, iyong dinggin.

at wala nang iba pang mas mahalaga,
sa tamis na dulot ng pag-ibig ng ating dalawa.
sana naman ay makikining ka,
kapag aking sasabihin, minamahal kita.

hmm. i promise to love that song forever.

im so happy we're so much better na. the days before that were like hell really. i dont wanna go through them again.

thanks. :)

after 100 posts.

hmm. this is my 1o1st post already. nice.

i terribly miss school. x_x

the past days have been weird, that there is some part in me that wishes we still had school, but of course, there's the bigger, more sensible part of me that's thinking, "OMG, that's the most stupid idea i've ever heard" lol. something's getting to me.

life never hit me with this much problems. well, actually, i never realized that life had this much complications. it's depressing me, even if some of these problems are not actually happening to me personally, but to other people i love. hay.

LSS:
what goes around- JT.

what a sad day..

and when our love seems to fade away
listen to me hear what I say

i don't wanna feel
the way that i do
i just wanna be
right here with you
i don't wanna see
see us apart
i just wanna say it straight from my heart
i miss you...

what would it take, for you to see
to make you understand that i'll
always believe
you and i, can make it through
and i still know, i can't get over you
-"Miss You"- Westlife

oh well. westlife simply rocks. of course that includes their songs, which i can just totally relate to sometimes..lol.

i was kinda sad today. lets wonder why it heightened..

*i had to practice my chinese song. OMG can you imagine me singing, in chinese?? oh well, im ding it for the 10000. XD

*we experienced a really long brownout.

what else could you possibly ask for?

anyway, im looking forward to our MOA tomorrow. haha. :)

till next time. i hope to get the other skin working real soon..

pre - ultimatum

yes. my last day in high school was, despite the horrible AP exam, super fun and enjoyable.

..and enlightening.

..and eye-opening.

hmm. were my terms right? lol.

anyway anyway. what happened today:
- i made a super stupid mistake in math. 5*5=10. OMG. 10 points thrown in the ditch!

-AP test was hell. even with all those multiple choices and matching types. i actually thought the drawing part was the best thing about it. i wasted my time reading the book, which FYI was really booooring.

-learned that davin and i got a 70+/100 in my physics exam. gosh. that's just unacceptable.

-waited for so long for the whatever form [certification of good moral something..] that i don't think i even need. i just got because everyone did so, because it was said that every university except DLSU needed it. lol.

-we, as in me, Toni, Danielle, Andrea, Adrian and Dwight, ate lunch at never dying Country Chicken. Too bad Toni and Danielle had to leave early. it was really fun talking with them.. im glad we were able to, evena at the last day.

-English club members were awarded. awww, why just now? when it was the first time i switched. now i realize the value of loyalty. haha.. toni showcased her singing talents again, which sounded even better, especially after...... hahahhah. mean. >:)

-went home at 3 o'clock.

-forgot to buy something my sister asked me to, which i did. and then for some illogical reason, i walked home after, right under the scorching heat of the sun. mind you, it was a long walk. haha..

yes, i was enlightened from talking with davin and the others. but it doesn't mean im gonna forget everything diba? haha. i still appreciate. and i still love. XD

absurdity.

gosh, why do i always act so stupidly??

anyway.

4th year has been such a rollercoaster ride (ahem, quoting Elaine. :D). even if im technically not fond of rollercoasters, i dont think i want to leave the ride now. but i guess i have to move on. i also can't wait to see all the pictures we took yesterday. even though i know i probably look horrible in most of them, still, those pictures are wonderful reminders of the past three years i have spent with IV-5 Cinq.

there are lots of times that i look back, and wonder, what could have been happening now if Mr.Buiza never became my teacher, if he never moved to make me transfer to the Math section, if i was still in IV-4. i would have missed to know lots of wonderful people, but i would also have been close with my former friends. oh well, i may never know. what's important is that im happy with everything that's happening right now. :)

a lot of unexpected events have lead me to be graduating in this class, in this particular school, that im sure there was some sort of divine plan to it. haha. im eternally grateful.. and now, maybe il just wait for the rest of the plan to make itself happen. :D

*hoping to clear my mind of self-pitying thoughts. i cant afford being depressed. o_O*

the very last day...

hay. today was officially the last regular school day of my high school. it was sad, really. im not at all ready to say goodbye to my friends just yet. oh well, every good thing has to end, and high school was definitely one of the best things that happened to me, 4th year in particular. this was the first year i got close to certain people, i mean, in the past years, i was usually just hanging around, never really knowing the people i was with. and so, this year was super special.

i will so miss everyone, especially the ones i have become close to. im really hoping that as we part ways, we would always treasure the moments we had with each other, that we'll never forget. :)

if you're kinda wondering, i did cry today. for about 5minutes, right after the bell rang. haha....

today consisted mainly of picture takings.. and laughs. and hugs.. and goodbyes.. aww.. there are lots of things to miss.. :)

anyway.
it's kinda hard priotizing things which may never reciprocate. as in. disappointments are sure to kill your feelings...but well, it doesn't mean it's not something you should do. lol. :D

time to study for the long exams. last no to eh...XD

i waited.

Coz I've been waiting for so long
Do I need to wait here or go

LOL. wla lang. "wait or go" of 6cyclemind. and yeah, today, i waited.

i don't really understand why i waited until 515, which meant having to endure almost 45 minutes of boredom. as if some compelling force was preventing me from going home just yet. well of course, i also wanted to talk to him. i did, you know, for about 5minutes, give or take. not that i expected anything more, i was kinda contented with that already.

wasn't I?

oh well. whatever. i just remembered Dwight's question this morning. and i realized that according to the standards of society, I should be the one being waited for, I should be the one being followed. in short, I should not be doing these things. lol. i don't think it really matters.

doesn't it?

LOL. it doesn't. haha. :D

=)

Spongecola's Transit is officialy my depression CD. lol. it just soothes me whenever im feeling really sad. or maybe unhappy. like yesterday? hmm. that's a question i am so unsure how to answer. indeed, i was feeling kinda low yesterday, and this morning too, when i woke up. but i guess i can't stay depressed for a whole day, i mean, with danielle toni and iris as my seatmates? haha. it's impossible. and besides, im a completely shallow person [superficial belongs to Toni already, so il just use shallow. lol. ] and i get depressed over the shallowest reasons. oh well. haha.

we watched a music video from IV-3, and in all honesty, it was good. haha. especially Myko, since he was the only one there i knew personally. lol. the video was really funny, but somehow, it was really, really likable. and yeah, the lips were in sync with the music, which i guess, is hard to do. so congrats to them. :)

i wish the English Department made us watch all the videos.. i wanna watch all of them haha.. well okay, maybe excluding children's shows. aww, ang sama. XD

i just realized how thankful i am for friendships. i mean, i was really surprised of the people who suddenly greeted me. List of people i was surprised of:
- Sir Raymond. really.
- Leonard Tan (the really rich guy from Makati Hope. haha.)
- Ken Lee (i dont know how he found out. lol.)
- Janelle Alfaro (she was my best friend from Cavite, and we haven't talked for years.)
- Sherly Ballaran. come on..
- Jane Sy. we haven't talked since first year. haha
- Ivan Clement. of Pisay. hmm..
- Charles Sia. another person from the distant past..
- JOHN ERIC SY. lol haha joke lang. im not bitter anymore, natatawa nlang ako that he forgot. . XD